Cried for 10 years,
prayed for 10 years,
exhausting mortal allotment of tears.
Reverently letting go,
ephemeral hand of lost searching
soul;
this lifetime
destined to be a holy man.
Lotus and sterile
upon quivering cliffs,
scolded by the laughter
of river om,
peeling a snakeskin of smudge;
(fingerprints of impostors
and false lovers)
revealing nothing, save the storm-
(gales of scarlet turbulence,
stupid will, drowning
in torrential zen).
And deep within dark sheets
just beyond mortal infection,
yet close like lingering perfume,
modulating, noise and note,
virgin silhouette of inspiration –
the dreamer ghost.
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dreamer ghost
your mind
i tried to touch your mind,
whispering intuitions
as i unwrapped them,
chanting visions
of perfect children
with your face and mine.
i painted you
upon every thought,
and every wall,
but human distance is hell.
it’s wearing me thin,
and your moths are forgetting the poems,
distracted by tambourines
and the flamenco at night.
i stoke the bonfire every day.
it has consumed everything,
more than i own.
can you feel the warmth?
can you see the glow?
but now, love, my body cries
to be fed,
to be released,
to transcend, and
my angels have flown
to higher ground;
said i was a ghost
wandering in violets
searching for your body –
following the butterfly
of inspiration.
half heart
deathless sleep of angel’s womb,
i fly as fetus
searching every drifting dream
for a pulse unborn –
the cry
of the half heart.
~
(heaven’s tears caress,
a shower of diamond light,
burning away ugliness, melting years,
bathing every lie.)
i peal jacquards
of colour and time
to enter the vault;
truth to unlock all locks
and open the gate
where we began, before
~
before i was torn –
ripped suffering suckle,
immortal fruit’s desire, taken
down
to walk as they walk,
smearing history
with animal’s blood
upon canvas and mind
line upon line;
killing for poetry,
praying for art,
sacrificing the purest of the pure –
more than i knew,
more than i cried for
~
and,
dying, because
they said so.
they said i must.
they, how be it,
said too much
but reaching, always
for the fading hand,
i descend open-eyed
beneath the darkness
of wave and sea.
~
sweet gentle lamb
where is my inspiration?
my altars, i swear, were of gold!
did i not slaughter you painlessly
under the shadow of law,
dissecting and eating the guts
of every letter?
putrid nourishment,
sustaining every plague
of mortal shame.
~
yet, anon, and ever and,
i breathe
the breath of her flame,
burning the cake of karma,
undressing the negligee,
and serpentine lace of lies
revealing the child,
and i remember and know
as i am known –
the reflection of her face
resting upon feathers.
~
she dreams my life
enduring the timeless quiver
of the half heart,
moaning under the lash
of each passionate stroke –
fatal caress of wincing flesh,
the final offering of time,
kneeling before the pendulum,
she follows my death
through countless cocoons,
back
into her womb,
once again.
~
once again,
i lie between shadow and light
tracing the jagged edge,
seared pitiful heart – half-self,
torn, never separated,
realizing with every cycle and refrain
earth’s delicate axis never to sustain.
such bliss a dangerous thing;
would end the fragile construct mortality,
shattering gold and hinging law –
falling as delirious playing cards
in slow motion
never to fly.
~
never!
never to be written,
never to be recorded,
not by them,
not by the gatekeeper.
she waits the wait of zen,
beyond rust and stumbling saints;
a silhouette glowing
upon wavering prison drapes,
like an old film framing electric mist.
her dream is my vision
and tears are the food
of everlasting flight.
let it rain.
i eat every diamond.
~
dearest nightingale,
touch me with your feathers,
as torn hearts live to mend.
we walk not as they,
with footprints of fossil in clay
sinking deeper with every step,
but higher, above the begging tempest
upon water of light
through the mirrored gate,
we awaken from supposition
unto our eternal reflection,
one heart
one mind
one love.
butterfly
i think of her still,
in that endless field of violets
sending her touch –
tender ethereal butterfly
kissing my mind
with inspiration.